The season, for me, starts in October. It is secretive, this beginning, as the rest of the world continues about its usual, autumnal business: school runs, talks of daylight savings, soup. I, meanwhile, am watching for the first sign of Christmas, looking for it on lichened branches.
Sloe berries, purpled and clustered on blackthorn, their crushed velvet skin midnight after a summer of green. Yearly I am thrilled to see them – my festive portents, my starting pistol, my excuse to begin plotting the year’s Christmas eating. Sweet, infused gin for gifting needs two months to steep at least and I am pleased, in October, to savor a private moment of planning. Like the arrival of mince pies in the supermarket, the appearance of sloes ripe for the picking encourages a quiet nostalgia, a solitary sentimentality for candles lit, tables laid, and togetherness. Christmas is coming.
I take pleasure in the planning, the preparation, and sloe gin is a process from harvest to bottling. The picking has always been a family affair and puts me in mind of the past: foraging in the autumn mist with my parents and sister, my maternal grandmother. We would shrug on the prospect of our traditions like festive jumpers, gleeful with the familiarity of it, the comfort. There might be a crumble for tea when we got home. Scrumped apples softening as sloes were washed at the sink. In recent years it has been my husband’s and my fingers that have stained blue, berries cupped in our ungloved hands, as we debate potential puddings for the day: Christmas cake, tiramisu, trifle. The dessert discussion is taken seriously as we put sloes into our pockets, stash them in Tupperware. The prospect of our table, full, fills me, and I imagine future years in which our children will accompany us, old enough to have their small hands among the branches, making requests for sticky toffee pudding, for panna cotta, for whatever sweet prospect fills their hearts too.
These seasonal traditions, these sloes: a portal into the past, the future.
In the passing weeks—November, early December—the gin is forgotten. An enormous Kilner jar filled with cheap liquor, caster sugar, and the best of the berries darkens in a seldom-used cupboard. The days rush by. Tinsel, party invitations, school plays. Marks & Spencer buffets, brandy butter on everything.
